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Posted on 2003.10.22 at 01:13
Current Mood: contentcontent
Current Music: Leon Russell - Tight Rope
Things have... quieted down. I'm still staying with Birman, mostly out of comfort. It's.. like a second home to me and I'm loathe to leave it. I hope that I haven't overstayed my welcome. ~winks~

I had a chance to talk with Aya a while back. I... didn't realise how much I missed him until I saw him. I guess it's one of those you never know how much it means to you until it's gone, ne? I'm just glad he's not really gone. Though I've been staying nights here with Birman, I've been spending most of my days at the Koneko. I think I've put in more work in the last three weeks than I have in the past year. Surprise! I actually enjoy arranging flowers! ~laughs~

It's.. good to have Ken back. Though it doesn't feel as though he's completely back. Things.. have changed. He won't tell us what happened while he was gone, and most of me really doesn't want to know. I don't know if I could handle learning that something happened.. and that someone I consider a dear friend was the cause of it. ~sigh~ It'll take time... but things'll be back to normal eventually, right?

I.. haven't had any contact with that guy... Just.. dreams. Odd dreams. Vivid, I think... at least it seems so when I'm dreaming, but I can't remember much else. It's as if they hover just at the edge of my perception and then disappear when I focus on them. Frustrating as all hell. ~shakes head~ But it's a clue as to what's going on... I think. Still no visions though. I'm not sure whether to be worried or relieved over that yet. Worried because talents just don't disappear.. but relieved because I feel almost normal again. Of course, I can never be completely normal. Look at the world I live in.

Sorry for having ignored this for so long. I suppose I didn't have as much of a need for it when there isn't as much going on. I've got someone to hold and be held by at night, a wonderful man that I love.. a wonderful woman that I don't know what I would do without... and friends. They're all safe, they're all whole... I'd bore you if I posted daily about arranging flowers or what Omi got on his history test. ~laughs~

Maybe things are calming down.

We could all use these moments of peace.

I'm off to bed. I think I woke Birman up with my clacking on the keyboard. Gomen nasai, dear. I won't stay up this late typing again...


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